Monday, May 4, 2009
I try to be nice. Really, I do. But one aspect I have trouble with is letting go. I am a professional grudge-holder. It's true. Wrong me once, and I have serious difficulties getting over it. Especially if it involves someone being not-nice. It's like I'm a Niceness Avenger! I still talk about how my teenage arch nemesis threw little crumpled pieces of paper in my hair during English class.
So those of you who stopped by here on Friday night might have seen a post from me regarding my plea for votes, saying how I was going to throw in the towel because another contestant seems to be involved in foul play. (I eventually deleted it.) All weekend it consumed me. I even had a dream that I tracked this girl down and asked her why she's doing this. I'm crazy, I know.
Eventually it became less about winning and more about this other girl NOT winning. Ms. Nice versus Ms. Shady. If you want to see me being not-so-nice, read my vent here.
But you know what? I need to get over it.
Today's Assignment: Let it Go
What good is stressing about it doing me? None. It's just giving me bad sleep, headaches, and chest pains. Over something so silly! Why do I care what someone else is doing? Obviously she must want to win very badly, and maybe she doesn't have all of the luxuries that I do, and this trip would be an amazing experience for her. So she's doing whatever she can to win. Or maybe I really wouldn't have a great time because it will be too hot or too crowded or too much of a hassle, and the universe is protecting me from that. There are many ways to look at the bright side!
In fact, I'm still amazed at how many of you have rallied behind me! So many people have voted and even encouraged other people to vote. It really warms my heart to see that support from you all! So really, as cheesy as it may sound, I'm already the winner! Come on, my nice army is giving an alleged rule-bender a run for her money! How cool is that?!
Don't get me wrong. I'm still going to try. If you haven't voted yet and you'd like to, I'll take all the help I can get! It might not do any good, but at least I'll give it my best shot....legitimately.
But in the meantime, I'm going to let it go. I'm not going to have any more anger building inside of me. In fact, I feel better already! So, do you guys hold grudges? Do you still obsess over something that happened years ago? I'd love to hear your story! Maybe telling it will help you let go!